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the air was always still and thick in summer heat. it was impossible to get warm in winter. every noise from the front door to the back hall could be heard. my first studio had three leaks from the drain pipe above; the second had one from a vent that I’m pretty certain pigeons used as shelter from time to time. the cat had to be kept a secret.

strangely leaving Portland is not nearly as difficult as giving up this one place. few things have ever felt as harmonious to me as The Warehouse. our penchant for closing down the bar before playing music until dawn would be the spawn of First Friday; for a few years there was a perfect balance between my personal chaos and my living environment.

i’ve lost track as to whether my perpetual motion is out of need, habit or dependence. but I know this one place, this idea and how I’ve been a part of it, is true—something in short supply these days. my only hope in the future is that I can build something as meaningful, and not that i will look back on abandoning this ship as a grave mistake—

22:30 / 22 March 2019
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Cityscape

the last time i was getting ready to leave Portland, I knew that it would not be my final time here. now as the studio begins to clear out and my Official Residency is no longer in oregon, and I look at the city through more a lens of the past than the present or future, i can’t find much of a reason to return.

Portland is a wonderful place to lose yourself but a terrible place to find yourself in. its appeals have all but faded in the past decade: financial interests have moved in, motivations—and the people who own them—have become suspicious. it has become self-serious in a way that casts aside the various oddball subcultures that were appropriated for a television show.

(increasingly I find myself drawn to New York and Los Angeles—perhaps the reasons they are reviled are why I appreciate them: their is a stark and brutal honesty to the vanity and greed that are the backbone to their primary industries. capitalism is exposed, and while Silicon Valley spins itself as Saving The World (or whatever), LA and NYC just don’t care what anyone says unless it makes them some bank. and if that isn’t America Now, I’m not sure what is.

14:15 / 11 March 2019
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FFFebruary

another month / another poster

I’ll have one or two new things on display at the Warehouse show for First Friday, plus a variety of musical arrangements—my next solo stuff will be in April as a goodbye to Portland / book release party—more to come on that in the future

10:00 / 29 January 2019
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To The Barricades Again

The Police At Church

A Fire In The Square

going through some boxes, packing things up in the studio, found some developed but unscanned film—these from (one of) the protests about the Trump immigration policy—if memory serves it’s around the time of the initial travel ban

still it boggles the mind that marches like these could snake through the streets every day and be simultaneously 1.) about some new hateful atrocity of governance and 2.) equally ineffective in creating any substantial change

PSU Students

Solidarity

Stormtroopers

16:30 / 8 January 2019
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Domestic Gross

Nobody releases decent movies in January even though it’s cold as fuck and pouring rain and there’s nothing to do because films all get dumped off at Christmas since a) the end of the year is the deadline for Academy Award consideration and b) why would anyone want to actually spend the holidays with family. So now weeks pass without any damn reason to go waste some time in a warm theater, furthering the proof that those in charge of national entertainment have put zero thought into the idea of when and why people need to be entertained.1

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  • I understand Vice isn’t supposed to be all bad, but I’m just not ready to go and see something about the Bush years in the theater. Yes, The Big Short was awesome, and the financial crash was infuriating in many respects, but in terms of man-robot mass-murderers on screen I’d like to stick with Star Wars.

01:00 / 6 January 2019
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Insomniac

PDX 2016

… the days have passed but their feeling remains. I’m returning to Portland for the first time since moving out—sleep has become a dream and being awake seems to be a non-stop anxiety attack, blurred vision and counter-intuitive feelings …

01:15 / 3 January 2019
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